I don’t know why I’m writing this, I guess I needed some closure for this.
Few months ago a dom I served for over a year decided to block me everywhere, and it totally destroyed me. We were a little bit more than just findom and we get along on so many things.
I don’t want to talk about what happened, what matters in the end is I was completely traumatized by the experience. I even wanted to k**l myself for that. I feel like I was being too naive.
I don’t know if I could send money to anyone anymore, it feels like no matter what I do, I couldn’t get anyone to understand me, I couldn’t even get someone to like me doing something as low as a finsub.
I just can’t trust anyone anymore, not just findom but also regular dom/sub, people could promise whatever they want but it’s really up to them to keep the promise.
It’s easier to just accept my severe mental illness makes people frustrated and just don’t want to care.
Could I find something long term ever again? Probably not. After what happened I think people only care about themselves no matter what they say.
And I was naive and too easy to trust people, thinking I could get something genuine off the internet, and my mental illness makes me unable to deal with whatever bad things that’s going to happen
Good read and insight sub, it can take time to learn and grow with the real measure of people. Time is a great healer but the history can still hurt. All in time will you find a way that is right for you. Hopefully can find and enjoy some of the community hereGood read and insight sub, it can take time to learn and grow with the real measure of people. Time is a great healer but the history can still hurt. All in time will you find a way that is right for ...See more
Sorry that happened to you, it really sucks when someone dear decides to dissappear without notice nor explanation. Even more with a deep connection... I agree with superman, give yourself time to heal properly, especially with therapy (mental health is very important). About your servitude this time, it served a purpose and I'm sure you were happy while doing it and it wasn't a waste of time since it made you feel OK. Focus on the process and not that much on the end, it'll hurt a little less ❤️Sorry that happened to you, it really sucks when someone dear decides to dissappear without notice nor explanation. Even more with a deep connection... I agree with superman, give yourself time to hea...See more
I hope you find closure man, I do. We all know the world is a tough, heartless place, and on the planet of BDSM and findom the heartlessness sometimes reaches new levels of monstrosity. Never give up because once in a while something glorious, something human, something breathtakingly beautiful comes along... 🌈I hope you find closure man, I do. We all know the world is a tough, heartless place, and on the planet of BDSM and findom the heartlessness sometimes reaches new levels of monstrosity. Never give up ...See more
