Fantasy becoming reality part 2

For a while now, I have felt like being a cold hearted bastard with subs, I want to be as cruel, vicious & violent with subs but at the same time ensure they are ok.  There is some extreme play I would like to do (use imagination for my extreme play) and really have fun with it/see if I like it, I have done one form of extreme play years ago and loved it and want to do it again but also extend my extreme play as well. I want to have full TPE over a sub where I fully control his life and spending habits, really put him under the thumb.

Fantasy becoming reality

I am a Dom and I have fantasies that I would like to become reality. Yes I know on here I don't sound/talk Dominant enough probably because if I did I would look like a 3yr old throwin a tantrum haha, anyways I look at some pictures of both Doms and subs and think, that if I had a sub in that position how I would like to take him down a peg or two or give him his comeupance. There are fantasies where I want to be a complete bastard to fags, and walk away leaving them on the floor crying like little bitches whilst I walk away with my pockets full of fag tips and my wallet here full of fag tips after I have drained them. 

How I feel..

I know this may notbe the place to say how I actually feel, but due to events that happened this morning has got me thinking.

I come on here, with the expectation of having fun, chatting, possibly cracking a few jokes, and of course getting tips/gifts.

This morning I tried cracking a joke and instead of the other person messaging me to say that he didn't find it funny or to say "sorry CB, you got it wrong" he just instantly blocked me, I tried reaching out on another platform to find out what I done wrong and to apologise.

Since this morrnings blocking, I have looked at myself on this site and to be fair and honest, I feel like I am not welcome anymore, I feel like am getting pushed out and that people only speak to me if am the only one in chat or just to be pleasant.

I have come to the conclusion that when I can withdraw all my tips I will and then will delete my profile as I don't want to be a burden to anyone, also I don't want to be in chat where I am not welcome.

I know most will see this as negativity, but it is how I feel, I will think about staying or rejoining, but I will have to be made feel welcome, 😢😢